last week we went daiso together to buy umbrella and strawbeery sherbic.
last tues we did sherbic together... it was tasty.
last wed we came to an agreement that we take a break first give each other some time.
I broke down on that night he came and find me to comfort me. I know he cares...
thurs, christmas eve lots of things happen at illu. i breakdown when i reach home...
fri, they celebrate my birthday for me. I miss him i want to find him but i couldnt...
He told me to be strong... its just a habit having him by my side. I realise i cant live without him...
he's my addiction my type of drug that i need to overdose myself with every night.

I jus told you how i felt...
I am not giving you pressure. ..
I cried at your house.... you hug me like a baby.
you gave me 2 choices either we end everything or we continue to be like this.
I hate it when you say even if we are together we will break.
Then whats the point of being this state ?
I hate no status makes me felt so insecure so useless so pointless.
You doesnt allow me to turn to anyone.
You are driving me crazy i cant leave you and i cant have you.

6 Dec 09

you told your ite friend that im your gf! Im so happy to hear that.
today is the first time we wash car together.
I said i wanted to go somewhere with you and you suggested crab catching!
Its my first time catching crabs with you at sembawang park though some unhappy things cropped up. But you coaxed me with your kisses.

tingting broke the news to me.
How i wished im still kept in the dark.
Its been 2 month plus...
Tell me what should i do and feel ?
My tears are going to dry up soon.
How long more do i need to endure this ?
Christmas and my birthday is coming....
Another sad birthday ?

I really miss you dearly...
Why do i feel like history is repeating itself ?

can you tell me that you love me ?
I know you care about me.
I mean something to you...
Don't push me away anymore further.

I miss the way you kiss me.
I miss the way you hug me like a baby.
I miss the way you watched me sleep.
I miss the way you kiss my forehead.
I miss how you dry and straighten my hair.
I miss you bringing me to eat whenever i complain when im hungry.
I miss the way you tease me.
I miss the way you laugh.
I miss the way you look at me.
I miss the way you calm me down when i flared up.
I miss you buying icecream for me when im pissed.
I miss the way you piggyback me.
i miss....
i miss....
i miss.....
i miss...

There's alot of things that i miss about you.

I love you dearly..
No matter what i will wait...
You are what i wanted...